Reading Bill Drummond's book "45" again. I was always wondering why I liked him so much, he doesn't have a vivid charisma in a way, say, David Gahan or John Bon Jovi have. Now I know - he's paranoid just like me.

Throughout the entire creative way of The KLF he and Cauty sang about loneliness in a way that I like - loneliness on a rave party, loneliness at night in the middle of nowhere, loneliness in a hood when surrounded by hundreds of fans. All that was covered deeply in almost sectarian propaganda and KLF's own mythology: sheep, 3AM, Justified Ancients Of Mu-Mu (The JAMs), Trancentral. Then, I understand why he left the industry. It's not because the experiment was over, Drummond just got tired and bored, because there was no way forward: he wouldn't be able to become a regular smiling pop star, he wanted something different but the industry couldn't offer anything. He must be a person with a vivid imagination who's actually afraid of everything at all. He had built his own world and he could prove his right to do so.

Anyway, he could leave showbiz, but with that he just fed up his fears and senses again. "45" the books proves it. And, blimey, how good he is! He's originally scot and he knows very well what happens to modern Scotland, especially to his childhood Mecca, steel town of Corby. 12,000 people were let go from there because Polygram lobbists convinced the government that, literally, "the music business generates more cash than British Steel". And Labour Party quoted the slogan "British film industry - bigger than British Steel". But then Polygram is a Dutch-owned corporation and most of the steel used in the UK now has been made in Holland and Germany.

It's a shame to see people are ripped this way. And who will say Drummond is paranoid? What's wrong or incorrect in what he says?